Six months as of tomorrow

I don't think I should be scared. No, I'm not. But it's amazing how long I can hold onto him. Six months of being happy, it's not the first, but it's the best one yet, so I'm really happy. I've only drawn a drawing for him, he's going to think it's because he told me to. It was in my mindset before he told me, I swear. Also, I don't think a drawing is enough. Sure, it comes from the heart and all. And the best presents aren't store bought. But I didn't spend anything on this, so now I feel like a tight-arse.
In other news, I founds the third book of the Midnighter's series, so I'm over the moon and back again. It's probably the most suburb series ever. I don't care what people are saying about Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings or Twilight - they're not my type of fantasy. Go the supernatural fantasy!

Okay, end rant.

Shake, shake. Shake, shake a-shake it

Nine Billion Dollar Distruction

I just want to crawl up into a little kitty-shaped ball and hide from the world. I'm so sick of arguments and misunderstandings. My eyes want to drop tears, but I keep telling myself that I must stay strong. It's only just a minor thing, I shouldn't get worked up on it. But my eyes tell me otherwise. They want to let the water fall down my cheeks. I don't know why I feel this way, I was so happy last week.

Distant

I want to know things. I want to be able to know as much as possible about everyone I know. The catch is, I'm feeling more distant to everyone than I ever have. I wonder; am I one of those group tag-a-longs that people only accept out of their kindness of their hearts? I don't know. It's confusing me. I feel lonely. I want more than just a boyfriend and a best friend, I want a group of friends that can be there just randomly for a day out or a fall back if the other two don't fall through.
The worst thing is, I feel the most alone at school -where everyone is- compared to home -where it's just me, and sometimes mother- I don't know.
I'm thinking into this too much.
Joe Brooks is calming me down.

Secretly a life lesson

Eww. Old.

So there you have it. The starting of a happily ever after. Mother's found her mister police fellow and I've found the answer to my revision sheet.
This made me realise.... kid movies are pathetic. Yea, happily ever after's are what we all like to see. "At least they've got each other." Something we like to think right? Most characters in these movies are teenagers. Therefore, they're probably going to get divorced at some stage. Cancer maybe? I don't know. But you can't just END happily ever after. The story keeps going. More things happen. Maybe each movie should be a sequel. But then, that'd get boring.
So, I may have finished my revision test. But will I pass the real test? Will mother and mister police fellow hook in? Will I get a sibling?! NO! Mother's 50 next year. How scary. She's old.
Eww. Old.